I miss my person – Connie Ferguson breaks 5 days after Shona’s burial
I miss my person – Connie Ferguson breaks 5 days after Shona’s burial
Connie Ferguson is still processing the death of her husband Shona Ferguson and she is letting us in on her grief which we all are sharing with her.
Connie took to Instagram live yesterday and shared what they used to do with Shona on Sundays.
She said, “Today is carpet Sunday. I miss my person. Every Sunday we’d just lie on the carpet and talk about everything under the sun or nothing at all. We’d just lie here and be with each other. I miss his physical presence so much but I feel in spirit that he is still with me.
“I haven’t had the guts to lie on the carpet. Since Sho got sick, leading up to his elevation to glory, I just didn’t think that I could do this on my own so today being the 8th day of month eight of one which is 2021, it dawned on me that it is a new day and I bless God for that. I bless God for…I call it the supernatural strength because I don’t know how I am able to do this, it can only be God. I wanted to share a word with you…
“It’s from John 14 verse 16 and 17. It says, ‘And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Advocate, who will never leave you. He is the Holy Spirit, who leads into all truth. The world cannot receive him, because it isn’t looking for him and doesn’t recognise him. But you know him, because he lives with you now and later will be in you’
“When I read this, I just thought about everything that happened and thought about how as Christians we love to say ‘he who is in me is greater than he who is in the world’ but how much of that do we actually believe because when things don’t go our way we fall part and feel betrayed and I did. I did. I asked a lot of whys. I asked a lot of why him, he was so young and still had so much to offer. I asked a lot about our plans, what happens to our plans now. So many questions.
“And then I was reminded that Connie your plans are not always God’s plans. Allow yourself to be still. Have faith that God still has your back and i believe God still has my back. Allow yourself to be still to you can hear and feel what the holy spirit is saying. So it can be revealed to you what God’s actual plan is for your life because what I thought what his plan for my life life wasn’t to be.
“So I was sharing that word just to say sometimes our plans are not THE plan. There is always a bigger plan but even when things don’t go our way, we need to remain faithful. We need to have faith. It is very easy to be fearful. I mean, It is very easy to run to that if you are scared…
“Tomorrow is not guaranteed, you don’t know what is gonna happen tomorrow but with faith, you trust that God has your back and you trust that God will never leave you nor forsake you and everything he knows our futures better than we could ever, better than we ever will. So faith no matter how small…that is what he needs from us.
“Faith and fear cannot co-exist so I am hanging on to every little faith that I have and working on growing that faith and drawing even closer to God so that he can reveal to me what his actual plan is for my life. Just thought I should share. Happy Sunday family, blessed Sunday. Happy Carpet Sunday”
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