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Singer Zolani Mahola opens up about being ‘violated and hurt’ as a child


 

Singer Zolani has taken to her social media to share her personal story with her followers.

The Freshly ground former lead singer opened up about being violated as a child and shared how she has healed from the ordeal.

“Today is a good day,” she wrote.

“Today I told a story I have been keeping inside me for three decades. A story which kept me locked in place. As an 8 year old who made a decision. To escape. To escape mind and body from the hurt and confusion of emotional and physical brutalization. Escape became a natural form of coping with the world. I survived life this way for years and years. Up until today. Today I am ready to do more than survive. Today I am ready to thrive. Today I am ready to say to the world that I was violated as a child. That I was hurt. Deeply [sic].”

Without going into much detail about the traumatic experience she went through as an eight-year-old little girl, she explained that she was violated and hurt.

As a result, she felt a lot of shame and carried a load that wasn’t hers to carry for 30 years.

She added that she’s finally choosing to let go of all the pain she carried into her adult years, and encouraged all other victims to do the same:

“The feelings of shame and imperfection I carried from that time on I am ready to let go of. Today.

“…I hope you will find it in yourself to tell someone trustworthy this part of your story. Don’t let it take 30 years before you can say “This was not my fault,” Zolani wrote.

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Today is a good day. Today I told a story I have been keeping inside me for three decades. A story which kept me locked in place. As an 8 year old who made a decision. To escape. To escape mind and body from the hurt and confusion of emotional and physical brutalization. Escape became a natural form of coping with the world. I survived life this way for years and years. Up until today. Today I am ready to do more than survive. Today I am ready to thrive. Today I am ready to say to the world that I was violated as a child. That I was hurt. Deeply. The feelings of shame and imperfection I carried from that time on I am ready to let go of. Today. And Today I say to You: boy, girl, marvelous manifestation perfect incarnation that you are : I say to you who have also been hurt in a way that made you turn away from yourself… I say to you that that shame… that feeling of not being worthy… that feeling of being Wrong: It does NOT belong to you. I hope you will find it in yourself to tell someone trustworthy this part of your story. Don’t let it take 30 years before you can say “This was not my fault” Before you can find it in yourself to find love for you. The You that you were Before. The You that you still are. The Beloved You that you will always be. Take care of your Self. With so much Love The One Who Sings 📸 @antoniasteyn Creative director @angelanemov @zakbasson Shot at @infinity_studios_ct 💄 @laikyns_mua

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This is not the first time Zolani has shared what she went through when she was younger. In June, she shared an existential crisis she went through as a teenager.

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When I was about 12/13/14/15/16 I would stand in the mirror And I would dream of skinny legs I would fold my thighs over both sides of the bone and flatten the flesh so that the skin no longer touched and for moments I’d have that oh so desirable thigh gap And when a well-meaning aunty told me to suck in my stomach because I would look skinnier I did it I wanted to look skinny See when my favorite uncle looked me up and down with horror in his eyes and told me “umoshakele” meaning “you’re damaged” I believed him Because the skinny light-skinned girl was always the one who got the boy I’m older now and it matters less that I don’t have a thigh gap. Or that I have other places than my body shape (slim-thicke) to place my security in It matters that I can reach back into the mirror and say to the little girl I was and say “ It’s not you It’s the world You are perfectly Beautiful As You Are” Creative direction @angelanemov 📸 @antoniasteyn @zakbasson @fajersallaj @justine_nomz @somisaworldwide @infinity_studios_ct @sunshinecoza #justzo #nobodyshame #nobodyshaming #bodypositive #thickisthenewthing #slimthick #bodyhurts #wordsmatter #yourwordsmatter

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