She took her own life in the garden – Nomzamo Mbatha breaks the silence on her Sister’s suicide
They say the more you keep quiet about something, it slowly eats you up without you even realizing it. Actress Nomzamo Mbatha decided to break the silence and share her feelings about her sister committing suicide, she finally found the strength to “silence the shame”.
An emotional Nomzamo took to Instagram to pour out her heart for the whole world to see. She openly shared how finding her baby sister in her family garden after she had taken her own life is still a tragedy that haunts her to this day.
Nomzamo further added that it’s a heartbreak she will never recoverer from. This brought many insecurities and self-doubt, and usually, these two feelings always tend to stick around a little longer even after healing wants to take place.
“Finding my baby sister in our family garden after she had taken her own life… it is a heartbreak that I will never fully recover from but will always be in the process of healing from. I felt guilt and shame. Was I not good enough for her to live for, was I a good sister, what signs did I miss.”
A part of Nomzamo blames herself for what happened, and unfortunately, time isn’t an easy medium to manipulate or turn back.
Why did I get on that flight the night before because if I was home the next morning she wouldn’t have gotten the chance to execute her plan.”
In spite of all the hurt and pain, hope still lurks in the background, and the actress said that putting herself in her sister’s shoes made her understand the pain she went through and that suddenly gave her peace, peace in knowing that her ninja (baby sister ) is in a place where she is free from hurt or any pain of this world.
“ I then turned my fear and heartbreak into love. To understand better and her experience and suffering. She is at peace and free from the pain of this world. She knew I loved her and that my family loves her .”